Mornings like this...

I have always wanted to stay at home with my not so little one.  Mornings like this one makes me want to even more. With the tears welling up in her eyes and then falling silently down her beautiful little face. The only words she can get out are: "I will just miss you SO much, Mommy!"
My heart was torn out and hurting as I walked out of the door and left her in the arms of another. Tears were falling down her face. How can I fully function today?

Thinking back...

5 years ago today...I was due to have a beautiful baby. BUT she wasn't ready yet. I was huge and ready. When I went to the midwife I was only 1/2 cm dilated. UGH!!! I was done. She was not. I went onto school the next day (Friday) and class that night 4-7 and didn't want to sit through 8 hours of class on Saturday!!! She got me out of that.  :-)